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losing cathexis

waiting for my tea

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day.  Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel.  None of these will bring disaster.
Elizabeth Bishop

Nina Persson : Losing my religion

"The intense cathexis of longing which is concentrated on the missed or lost object (a cathexis which steadily mounts up because it cannot be appeased) creates the same economic conditions as are created by the cathexis of pain which is concentrated on the injured part of the body" 
Freud, Inhibitions, Symptoms, and Anxiety

My turn to protect you, Snake


+ Video: "Raiden: My turn to protect you, Snake"

// "Love Theme", Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots, Original Soundtrack

+ HD Gaming Spotlight - Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots
+ Zero Punctuation Wades Through MGS4

"the Nintendo Entertainment System version came to North America in June 1988" - Metal Gear

So, I took a 20 year break between games (I fondly remember playing Metal Gear on the NES). I tried MGS2 and 3 but nothing beyond 2 hrs. They just did not click for me. MSG4 is another story. I've been very driven to finish it even if I'm not familiar with the whole story (thank you Wikipedia). Raiden's fight sequences have been my favorite (so far, I'm in Act 4).


Well it's Father's Day and everybody's wounded

Steiner62:  Sincerely, L. Cohen

You came to me this morning
And you handled me like meat.
You´d have to live alone to know
How good that feels, how sweet.
My mirror twin, my next of kin,
I´d know you in my sleep.
And who but you would take me in
A thousand kisses deep?

+ Leonard Cohen Live, 2008: First We Take Manhattan, Dance Me To The End Of Love (live), I'm Your Man, A Thousand Kisses Deep.

tell me that you love me more


1234 by ~duhitsmia + Feist - 1234 Acoustic Live

+ Olga Nunes - A Dream Of Gardens. Lyrics by Neil Gaiman
+ Rachel Haught- The Stars
+ Santogold StandardSantogold's performance at The FADER 51 video
+ Voxtrot @ Webster Hall ( I suggest you click on "Ghost")
+ Lightspeed Champion concert teaser
+ Radiohead: The Best Of DVD is out. What's your favorite video? Its either "Just" or "Street Spirit (Fade Out) " for me.
+ Coldplay performing "Viva La Vida" at the MTV Movie Awards
+ "nerdgirls of the world unite 1"
+ Ok, you want to dance for a minute of two: Crystal Castles, David Guetta + Chris Willis "Love is Gone", The Ting Tings.
+ Laura Marling - Cross Your Fingers/ Crawled Out Of The Sea
+ Mason Jennings @ Daytrotter
+ galacticasitrep: Skippity Bee Bop
+ Introducing Qore
+ PRACTICE SPACE - Lightspeed Champion

the Nabokov Juvenile Depository for Females


At Cornell (where the annotator was his student in 1953-1954), Nabokov would begin his first class by saying, "Great novels are above all great fairy tales....Literature does not tell the truth but makes it up. It is said that literature was born with the fable of the boy crying, 'Wolf! Wolf!' as he was being chased by the animal. This was not the birth of literature; it happened instead the day the lad cried 'Wolf!' and the tricked hunters saw no wolf....the magic of art is manifested in the dream about the wolf, in the shadow of the invented wolf."
-The Annotated Lolita, Alfred Appel, Jr.

"Cutie was sent to the Nabokov Juvenile Depository for Females at Thanatossa for eighteen months".
-Night People, Barry Gifford

+ Throw Me The Statue - Lolita
+ Union Gap - Young Girl
+ Eurythmics - Seventeen Again
+ "i love you more than being seventeen"
+ Tegan And Sara - Nineteen