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Frustrating Mess


"sadness, anxiety, guilt, anger, isolation, or hopelessness; disturbances in sleep and appetite; fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyable activities; problems concentrating; loneliness, self-loathing, apathy or indifference; depersonalization; loss of interest in sexual activity; shyness or social anxiety; irritability, chronic pain (with or without a known cause); lack of motivation; and morbid suicidal thoughts."

If I voted for the Video Game Awards

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It's a bullshit awards show but it's all we've got. My personal picks:

Game of the Year

Assassin’s Creed III
Dishonored
Journey
Mass Effect 3
The Walking Dead: The Game

Studio of the Year

343 Industries - Halo 4
Arkane Studio - Dishonored
Gearbox Software - Borderlands 2
Telltale Games - The Walking Dead: The Game

Best XBOX 360 Game

Assassin's Creed III
Borderlands 2
Dishonored
Halo 4

Best PS3 Game

Assassin's Creed III
Borderlands 2
Dishonored
Journey

Best PC Game

Diablo III
Guild Wars 2
Torchlight II
XCOM: Enemy Unknown

Best Shooter

Borderlands 2
Call of Duty: Black Ops 2
Halo 4
Max Payne 3

Best Action / Adventure Game

Assassin's Creed III
Darksiders II
Dishonored
Sleeping Dogs

Best RPG

Diablo III
Mass Effect 3
Torchlight II
Xenoblade Chronicles

Best MP Game

Borderlands 2
Call of Duty: Black Ops 2
Guild Wars 2
Halo 4

Best Individual Sports Game

Hot Shots Golf World Invitational
SSX
Tiger Woods PGA Tour 13
WWE ’13

Best Driving Game

Dirt: Showdown
F1 2012
Forza Horizon
Need for Speed: Most Wanted

Best Original Score

Call of Duty: Black Ops 2
Halo 4
Journey
Max Payne 3

Best Graphics

Assassin's Creed III
Dishonored
Halo 4
Journey

Best Independent Game

Dust: An Elysian Tail
Fez
Journey
Mark of the Ninja

Best Fighting Game

Dead or Alive 5
Persona 4 Arena
Street Fighter X Tekken
Tekken Tag Tournament 2

Best Handheld / Mobile Game

Gravity Rush
LittleBigPlanet PS Vita
New Super Mario Bros. 2
Sound Shapes

Best Performance by Human Female

Emma Stone as Amanda Cartwright - Sleeping Dogs
Jen Taylor as Cortana - Halo 4
Jennifer Hale as Commander Shepard - Mass Effect 3
Melissa Hutchison as Clementine - The Walking Dead: The Game

Best Performance by Human Male

Dameon Clarke as Handsome Jack - Borderlands 2
Dave Fennoy as Lee Everret - The Walking Dead: The Game
James McCaffrey as Max Payne - Max Payne 3
Nolan North as Captain Martin Walker - Spec Ops: The Line

Best Adapted Video Game

Disney Epic Mickey 2: The Power of Two
Lego Batman 2: DC Super Heroes
The Walking Dead: The Game
Transformers: Fall of Cybertron

Best DLC

Dawnguard - The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
Leviathan - Mass Effect 3
Mechromancer Pack - Borderlands 2
Perpetual Testing Initiative - Portal 2

Best Downloadable Game

Fez
Journey
Sound Shapes
The Walking Dead: The Game

Most Anticipated Game of 2013

Bioshock Infinite
Grand Theft Auto V
South Park: The Stick of Truth
The Last of Us
Tomb Raider

Character of the Year

Connor - Assassin's Creed III
Commander Shepard - Mass Effect 3
Clap Trap - Borderlands 2
Master Chief - Halo 4
Raul Menendez - Call of Duty: Black Ops 2


Blops2 Clan

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If you want to join a Black Ops 2 clan for the hell of it, join mine. Elite membership is free by the way. It's called WiiU b/c every other tag I thought of was already taken and the WiiU came out the day I was creating it so it was on my mind. I don't have a WiiU. Not getting one until Zelda/Metroid or Smash Bros. comes out for it.

bad Mood

Numbingthepain

For years Holidays have not been pleasant for me. I can't even recall the last good Thanksgiving I had. I've been numbing the pain but alas, I woke up fucking grumpy today because in a few days I'll be going through withdrawal and it's a pain in the ass. These seem like ways to preoccupy my mind in one manner or another, away from my catastrophic life. Regardless, I'm in a pissed off mood1 and these are the random things that have irritated me today: (a) assholes who use Twitter like a public Instant Messaging Client and clog up a time line with their ridiculous back and forth chit chat (b) Gamefly did not deliver Playstation All-Stars ( or Persona 4 Golden) in the mail and I'm looking forwards to playing as Big Daddy in the game (c) the fact that "tv show recap writing" is a job is ridiculous (d) I'm only one season from being up to date on Sons of Anarchy and I've gotten used to marathon watching and real time digestion of the show is going to suck (e) Marvel comics decided to fuck up the Spider-Man comics with such a bullshit storyline that if I described it you may vomit on your keyboard (f) there is a person with a flamboyant lisp in one of the podcasts I listen to - so fucking annoying (g) I had some Canadian Whisky and it gave me a g-d damn headache. 


1 I almost wrote "Pissy" moody but I had an ex that would say that word and for some reason it drove me nuts when she did. I recall saying to her once: "Please don't refer to me with any words that end with the letter y". 


a soul With no leak at the seam

BY-fabrizia
Madness will push you anywhere it wants. It never tells you where you’re going, or why. It tells you it doesn’t matter. It persuades you. It dangles something sparkly before you, shimmering like that water patch on the road up ahead. You will drive until you find it, the treasure, the thing you most desire.
Marya Hornbacher, Madness: A Bipolar Life

Ipsicon

 Fabrizia*Milia 

what love does

Whymenlovebitches
“This is what love does: It makes you want to rewrite the world. It makes you want to choose the characters, build the scenery, guide the plot. The person you love sits across from you, and you want to do everything in your power to make it possible, endlessly possible. And when it’s just the two of you, alone in a room, you can pretend that this is how it is, this is how it will be.”
David Levithan

a lesson in relativity in the appreciation of a woman’s body

TeresaO (1)
“One has seen a woman, a mere image in the decorative setting of life, like Albertine silhouetted against the sea, and then one has been able to take that image, to detach it, to bring it close to oneself, gradually to discern its volume, its colours, as though one had placed it behind the lens of a stereoscope. It is for this reason that women who are to some extent resistant, whom one cannot possess at once, of whom one does not indeed know at first whether one will ever possess them, are alone interesting. For to know them, to approach them, to conquer them, is to make the human image vary in shape, in dimension, in relief, is a lesson in relativity in the appreciation of a woman’s body, a woman’s life, so delightful to see afresh when it has resumed the slender proportions of a silhouette against the back-drop of life.”
Marcel Proust