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a relationship that will not impede our wandering

“We’re all kind of weird and twisted and drowning.”
Haruki Murakami 
“I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know – unless it be to share our laughter. We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love.”
James Kavanaugh
 chasing daydream 

My Reasons for making it to 2013 #2

OBVIOUSLY the #1 reason is Bioshock Infinate. I'm not even going to bother with posting that, ya know. Anyways, you don't even know how HYPED I am for this 3DS game even though I never finished the Wii game b/c one of my best characters died and my previous save with him alive was too much of a backtrack. So yeah, permadeath, the Japanese love that:
In the various Fire Emblem games, if a character dies in combat, they will be permanently dead, though one loophole is to restart the battle from the beginning (The game saves the number of deaths in even if the player restarts). If a player chooses to finish the battle after a party member dies, they will be permanently lost. In some situations, goals of the missions are to keep one character alive, so that loss instantly ends the level and forces the player to start that battle from the beginning. In all cases, the main player character must not die under any circumstance—the death of this character will result in a Game Over. 

+ Reserve Fire Emblem: Awakening And Get An Art Book As A Bonus

"Day of Ceasefire For Online Shooters" is a waste of time

"The Ceasefire For Online Shooters—a demonstration in memory of Sandy Hook—starts tonight. "


+ Bill O’Reilly Talks About Video Games and Violence and Ends Up Being Somewhat Reasonable About It All

Sorry but I don't buy into "Violent" Video games being a problem. The sentiment behind this is fine but tying it to video games, nah.

Video Games And The Sandy Hook Shooting: Two Very Different Reactions 

+ Do Violent Video Games Lead To Violent Behavior?

My Favorite [GAMES] of 2012

The Witcher 2: Enhanched Edition

Such an amazing RPG. There's a point where the game changes direction based on one decision you make. I played both decisions and was amazed at how completely different things went down. It really is two huge fantastic games. I eagerly await a third game on the next generation of consoles.

Mass Effect 3


The ending was a clusterfuck but the journey and the people we met along the way. What a fucking classic Epic Sci-Fi thing I want to share with all my friends. 



I've been playing Street Fighter for 25 years and I'm never going to stop. Chun-Li is my homegirl.

Lumines: Electronic Symphony

The reason I got the PS VITA. That's how much I love LUMINES, I bought a device with a very unknown future but a gorgeous screen and Lumines is the best game to tune out the world and get lost in Music and Puzzles.



It gave me the Bioshock vibe and wonder I have not felt since 2007 when Bioshock came out. It's been a long time coming for a game to capture ambiance and cool gameplay, powers, setting, story and voice actors ( Susan Sarandon, Chloe Moretz, John Slaterry et al)


It has to be expiranced to be understood. Fucking brilliant soundtrack.



Brilliant Addictive Turn Based Strategy on a console? A Miracle.

[I'm not leaving my bed depression]

Dear You,

This has been the worst year for me. I've been inside a bed bound depression for three weeks now.  I feel like I only have one friend. The only one who calls.  She's a very funny, inspiring, beautiful, sexy as fuck, smart and mischiveious one at that. Alas, she doesn't live in my town. She's been my lifeline ( without knowing it) during this very trying year. I had a breakdown that destroyed the life I had spent years rebuilding. Gone in a flash. I'm back to square one. It's very unpleasant. I'm Fianancially1, Emotionally and Creatively bankrupt. My heart feels so empty. The Holidays are just a dissaster for me ever since my mother died. I long for someone. I'm getting old and it sucks..but there is a light at the end of my bed....I believe IN CHEMICALS.  At least "I'm Still Alive" (this gets carried over to the next post Obvs.)

1 in fact: if this blog ever goes down 'cos I can't pay for typepad: Bookmark achtungbaby.org. I have to back it up over there eventually but it's years worth of stuff and I'm not in the mood to fuck with migrating to wordpress or whatever the fuck. unless one of you wants to do it. 

The rise and rise of Leonard Cohen’s once-forgotten classic

+ VIDEO: Hallelujah! The rise and rise of Leonard Cohen’s once-forgotten classic
Over 360 recordings and thousands of performances later, Hallelujah's lyrical mix of the sacred and the secular has graced the repertoires of artists as diverse as Jeff Buckley and Susan Boyle, and continues to appear in movies, television dramas and talent contests around the world.