After a long absence I have returned Home. The place where this blog was born and a majority of it was created. I'm back.
It's been years since I had a birthday I liked. I hope I get to go to NYC again next year.
"The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly."
F. Scott Fitzgerald
I am selfish, private and easily bored. Will this be a problem?
Avoid the flourish. Do not be afraid to be weak. Do not be ashamed to be tired. You look good when you’re tired.
Please don’t understand me too quickly.
//Nicola Samori, L'Occhio Occidentale
Leonard Cohen: You’re the kind of person that people get obsessed with for years. Too bad you’re too depressed to appreciate it.
If you have any random questions I AM HERE TO ANSWER THEM. Do you wonder why I'm obsessed with "Lolita"? Have I come up with new weird names for my future off springs? Is J.Lo a disgrace to Puerto Ricans everywhere? et al.
I don't know why sometimes I think I can forgive when in fact I can't forget.
+ Rachel Yamagata - Even If I Don't.live
I can't think of a song that better pin points where my heart is at right now than the above song by the lovely Miss Yamagata. I thought this other song below was also close but then I realized more than halfway into it that it could actually be from The Girl towards Me.
+ Rachael Yamagata - You Won't Let Me.live
There are many in your life
And many still to be
You are a light
You are a shining light
So there's many that you'll see
I've got to deal with my own envy
When you choose the precious few
Who've left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
You are outside life, you are above life, you have miseries which the ordinary man does not know, you exceed the normal level, and it is for this that men refuse to forgive you, you poison their peace of mind, you undermine their stability. You have irrepressible pains whose essence is to be inadaptable to any known state, indescribable in words. You have repeated and shifting pains, incurable pains, pains beyond imagining, pains which are neither of the body nor of the soul, but which partake of both. And I share your suffering, and I ask you: who dares to ration our relief? We are not going to kill ourselves just yet. In the meantime, leave us the hell alone.
[ Starsailor: It Hurts Too Much ]
My reputation as a ladies' man was a joke that caused me to laugh bitterly through the ten thousand nights I spent alone.
[ U2: MERCY ]
2) It is also Read Comics in Public day!
I missed the 7th anniversary of this blog. A Post from that summer that I liked, represented:
...not only am I lonely but alone. I am like an eye dangling by a few nerves from a man’s socket, and I long for detachment or to be part of the body whole, anything but blind useless pain. I have not given up by any means so don’t let me depress you. There are insights to be gained from the tedious chaos. I could do so without such an education but since I have no choice I might as well learn. Laughter is a first in the face of the gods and I will make those heavenly faces bloody and blue
This blog has been active since July 2003. Now that I'm done with the May Mix that I worked on during my sabbatical I can say that for the first time since its inception I'm writing without a muse in mind. I have no idea what that will mean for it.
If you have an unattainable Crush, Just Quit before Your Heart Aches.
+ Morrissey - I Have Forgiven Jesus (Earls Court)
If you've ever wondered my "type" is (yeah right, like anyone cares), it is somewhere between the following fictional Characters: The craziness of Elizabeth "Effy" Stonem and the lonely ache of Charlotte in "Lost in Translation".
"I am a limitless series of natural disasters and all of these disasters have been unnaturally repressed."
Kathy Acker, Pussy, King of the Pirates
Photos: I forgot
+ B.R.M.C. (Black Rebel Motorcycle Club): And I'm Aching
Frank Miller, "Elektra Lives Again"
+ Seal: Prayer For The Dying
Life Carries On, It Goes On
Tash H: "what is love?"
That's quite the loaded question. I can't answer it. Baby don't hurt me.
Jeffrey Mc: 1.what is your favorite song of 2009, or better yet the decade
2009: Neko Case - This Tornado Loves You.
The decade: Joseph Arthur - Honey and The Moon
2. why did you start achtung baby? i check it almost every day, but why?!
To share my obsessions with my friends. To tell stories via music, motifs, photography. As a beacon to find like minded people. Just my luck that a large portion of the readers are shy or something. Alas, longtime friendships have been established because of the blog as well.
3. most curiously, what do you do for a living; in so much as what is your "career"?
Being that I am unemployed ( yes, I'm a statistic ) I can get away with this simple answer. As you can tell I like keeping some things private.
4. have you thought about moving to new york?
Every Fucking Day since 2007 when I sort of lived there for half the year due to work. My mum was born in New York so I feel like my life is pilgrimage there.
The goal: 24 posts in 24 hours. Ending at 12:00 am 01/01/2010. I'm on central time, I think Typepad is on Pacific, so take that into account.
I want to send a big thank you to my collaborators.
I want to dedicate my efforts to my mom who was sick and in ICU all through Christmas week but is now doing better. My newlywed friend. My NYC/Boston friends. And my PYT muse.
[ Minipop - Ask Me A Question ]
I know you miss your pills, holding on to a memory and time traveling into sleep. The illuminations. The feelings your friends don't and will never understand. The escape. The inspiration. The turmoil. Even though the line is about Scientology, I think of you now when I listen to "Famous Blue Raincoat" and he sings did you ever go clear?
+ Leonard Cohen-Lisbon 2009, Famous Blue Raincoat
My Guitar Hero 5 Avatar.
Hello there you handful of faithful readers I know and you multiple little lurkers. I hardly ever ask anything of you but today I'd like to know: Can you articulate what makes you come back to read this blog?