Achtung Baby!

I want you the right way

Nicole Patricia Malina

Children show scars like medals. Lovers use them as secrets to reveal. A scar is what happens when the word is made flesh. It is easy to display a wound, the proud scars of combat. 
Leonard Cohen, "The Favorite Game"

> The Afghan Whigs: 66
> Maxwell: Welcome
> Radiohead: Nobody Does It Better
> PJ Harvey: Is This Desire?
> Marvin Gaye: I Want You
> Beck: Kangaroo
Her "Map of Your Desire" playlist.

I'm martyr to a motion not my own

Quintessence II by Clara Palmer

I Knew a Woman
Theodore Roethke

I knew a woman, lovely in her bones,
When small birds sighed, she would sigh back at them;
Ah, when she moved, she moved more ways than one:
The shapes a bright container can contain!
Of her choice virtues only gods should speak,
Or English poets who grew up on Greek
(I'd have them sing in chorus, cheek to cheek.)

How well her wishes went! She stroked my chin,
She taught me Turn, and Counter-turn, and stand;
She taught me Touch, that undulant white skin:
I nibbled meekly from her proffered hand;
She was the sickle; I, poor I, the rake,
Coming behind her for her pretty sake
(But what prodigious mowing did we make.)

Love likes a gander, and adores a goose:
Her full lips pursed, the errant note to seize;
She played it quick, she played it light and loose;
My eyes, they dazzled at her flowing knees;
Her several parts could keep a pure repose,
Or one hip quiver with a mobile nose
(She moved in circles, and those circles moved.)

Let seed be grass, and grass turn into hay:
I'm martyr to a motion not my own;
What's freedom for? To know eternity.
I swear she cast a shadow white as stone.
But who would count eternity in days?
These old bones live to learn her wanton ways:
(I measure time by how a body sways.)

> Joseph Arthur: Honey and The Moon
> Leonard Cohen: Joan of Arc
> Massive Attack: Live With Me
> Ronettes: Be My Baby
> Prince: I Would Die 4 U
> KD Lang: Crying
> U2: Love is Blindness
> Yoko Kanno & Steve Conte: Words That We Couldn't Say
Her "Map of Your Aching and Longing" playlist.

By Friday life has killed me

[ Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds: Hold On To Yourself ]

> Morrissey: I Have Forgiven Jesus
> U2: Wake Up Dead Man
> Morrissey: Dear God Please Help Me
> Genesis: Jesus He Knows Me
> Tori Amos: God
Her "Map of Your Religion" playlist.

Dear John, I'm leaving behind an ipod

That's what she said... by ~Wacia

Dear You,

I'm leaving. Inside your favorite book I have left an Ipod with a mix of songs that remind me of you. All your drama and mystery. Your story-like, or cinematic sense about Love. I based it only on songs, musicians and albums I know you're connected to. Why is it that sometimes you meet someone when it is the right time for you but not the right time for them? And then it becomes the wrong time for both of you. You may then have to find reasons to be disillusioned, piece by piece, in small bites, when you are really being amazed, every time you see them, by leaps and bounds. I also included a few other playlists, these are my maps of you.

> U2 - Original Of The Species
> The Velvet Underground - Femme Fatale
> The Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
> Leonard Cohen - The Future
> John Cale - Dying On The Vine
> Tori Amos - Cloud On My Tongue
> Regina Spektor - Real Love
> Eisley - If You're Wondering
> Fiona Apple - Never Is A Promise
> Teddy Thompson - Tonight Will Be Fine

women adore me for the sad look in my eyes

*corollary/ este gallery

selections from a march soundtrack

/ Hayden: Damn this feeling (live)
people they call me just to make sure I’m o.k

/ The National: Slow Show (live)
I want to start over, I want to be winning

/ The Cardigans: Hold Me @ a Plague of a Angels
leave me alone
but don't ever let me go

/ Alanis: So Pure (live)
You from New York

/ Cat Power: New York (live)
longing to stray
Right through the very heart of it

/ U2: New York (live)
I'm staying on to figure out my mid life crisis

/ Ani: Platforms (live)
I suited up for the long walk Back to myself

Burnout Paradise custom soundtrack

EA Games ships games with crummy soundtracks. The new “Burnout Paradise” Soundtrack is no exception. Well, around 88% of it sucks (IMHO). This is my custom soundtrack when I play:

+ Radiohead - Killer Cars
+ Bjork - Army Of Me
+ The Rapture - Get Myself Into It
+ The White Stripes - Conquest
+ Timbaland - Bounce
+ Foo Fighters - The Pretender
+ U2 - Discotheque
+ Depeche Mode - Suffer Well
+ Kanye West - Good Life
+ Thom Yorke  The Clock
+ Garbage - Push It
+ U2 - MOFO
+ the white stripes - icky thump
+ Coldplay - Speed of Sound
+ Madonna - Sorry
+ Miley Cyrus - See You Again
+ Phil Collins - Another day in paradise

Quit this sad old scene

[ Don't get let down: a mix ]

Rhino Skin | Don't Get Down | I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry | I Came So Far For Beauty | If I Needed Someone | Love is a Losing Game | Love is Blindness | Starting Over

aching to be

aching to be // a mix

.Terminal Loneliness and other stories.

Maude Maggart/ I Can't Get Started

I'm a glum one It's explainable

Spottiswoode And His Enemies/ I'm Lost Again 

I'm naked and alone

Dave Gahan/ Kindgom

I have that desperate feeling

Lou Reed/ How Do You Think It Feels

How do you think it feels
When you're speeding and lonely

Nick Cave & Johnny Cash/ I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry

And as I wonder where you are

Tori Amos/ Digital Ghost

Only to find you all alone

Eisley/ Many Funerals

I'm content to lie peacefully

LCD Soundsystem/ New York, I Love You but You're Bringing Me Down

Like a death in the hall
That you hear through your wall

Raidohead/ Nude

You've gone off the rails

Aqualung/ Pressure Suit

Drift out into darkness
Lost out on horizon

by Sherri  D.

Maude Maggart/ Why Was I Born?

What is the good of me by myself?

Anjani Thomas/ Innermost Door

When I am alone, you'll come back to me

Teddy Thompson/ My Hear Echoes

You come back here and fill this loneliness

Spoon/ Black Like Me

What's gonna get me out of this?

Spottiswoode And His Enemies/ You Will Rise Again

You failed to foresee your present misery
but you will rise again

Love generally...

"Love generally but do not commit yourself to a particular love. You will become known as sympathetic friend and faithful lover because you never really permit these roles to seize your heart, you can practice and perfect them. But the heart is guarded, kept free and untarnished by any simple human affiliation so that it will reflect in glorious accuracy all the charts of the stars which the clouds one day will part to reveal. The important thing is not to approach anyone too close because tomorrow you may have become pure light."
Leonard Cohen

    [ Love generally...a mix ]

    Fiona Apple
In fact I can't stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

    Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova
The little cracks that escalated

    PJ Harvey
I'm in New York now, No need for words now

    Twilight Singers
What makes you think I'm the one
Who will love you forever?
Everything you do has been done
And this won't last forever

    Nick Cave
Out of longing great wonders have been willed

    Rufus Wainwright
Tonight with words unspoken

    Pedro The Lion
Let down and hanging around

    The Kills
X-O, took my heart and crossed it
Set it down and lost it, set it down and lost it

    Morrissey
This is good or bad, all depending on
My general mood

    Minipop
But You Wanna Say
What You wanna Hear

    Tori Amos
Make it easy
Make this easy
It's not as heavy as it seems

    Cardigans
Whether you want empathy, animosity
An enemy or company, call me

    James
For Every Woman You Will Leave and Open Door

Art/Photos:
The Umbrella by Olena / + Autumn.In.Manhattan + by Olena / The Romance In Her Coffee by Olena / .alarm clock II by ~Braina / .shoes vs. music by ~Braina / Inside... by ~Nhung / A kiss by ~becoming-death

/ love is an overwhelming currency /

~sweetzz145 | ~arlenephotography

[ love is an overwhelming currency: a mix ]

When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn't make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better.'It's all right' we whisper, 'I'm here, I love you.' and we lie: 'I'll never leave you.' For just a moment or two the darkness doesn't seem so bad.
Neil Gaiman

one flavor short of 32

photo by Jenni

The last 30 days of the 30th year

//U2: City of Blinding Lights (Live at the Brooklyn Bridge)

//Regina Spektor: Chelsea Hotel

//Eagle Seagull: I'm Sorry But I'm Beginning To Hate Your Face

//Teddy Thompson: You Finally Said Something Good (When You Said Goodbye)

//Fiona Apple & Christophe Deluy: Still I

//Tigercity: Other Girls

//The Swell Season: Sleeping

//Moby: Dream About Me

//Eisley: Just Like We Do (Live)

+ Jack Kirby Day

baby i've been here before

+ Marissa Nadler - Chelsea Hotel #2

So brave and so sweet

+ Allison Crowe - Hallelujah

You don't really care for music, do you?

+ Regina Spektor - Hotel Song

You will never be my fool

+ Sara Bareilles - Love Song

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well but you make this hard on me

+ The White Stripes - I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself

Movies only make me sad
parties make me feel as bad
cause I'm not with you

+ Radiohead - The Bends

where are you now when I need you

: seduction

seduction:a mix

"All great lovers are articulate, and verbal seduction is the surest road to actual seduction"
Marya Mannes

Please save me from this Avalanche

/ Elvis Costello - Please / 

/ Aimee Mann - Save me /

/ Leonard Cohen - Avalanche /

Commenting

In which a mix is a made from songs I would include with comments to friends on facebook/myspace, if those places were meant for honest comments.

I was floored by you but your taste in men is inexplicable. 
"Come back to me awhile, Change your style again, Come back to me awhile, Change your taste in men" | Placebo - Taste In Men - Paris

You are the most beautiful mystery I've never met.
"It's the way - She turns the tide" | U2 - Mysterious Ways - Slane Castle

I want to get on a plane and see you. Yesterday. Come here already.
"I cannot wait to call you And tell you that I landed somewhere" | Jason Mraz - "Plane" - Austin

There are only 3, maybe 5 men in the universe that will ever undertand you and I am one them. I could write the book on you.
"Chapter One we didn't really get along" | Elvis Costello - Every Day I Write the Book

Your advice is harsh and it doesn't inspire hope.
"You won't find a girl in this damn world" | PJ Harvey + Nick Cave - Henry Lee (live)

Indecisive girl, you will manage. You always do.
"Modern girls always get their way" | The Strokes + Regina Spektor - Modern Girls and Old Fashioned Men - NYC

We are overdue for partying. Pull me out of the Fortress of Solitude. You are allowed. 
"Now I have Been slightly shy And I can smell a pinch of hope" | Bjork - A Hidden Place (live)

Shopping without you is very unsatisfying.
"I can't get no, oh no no no" | PJ Harvey + Björk - Satisfaction (Live)

Your drunken soliloquies are the best. Especially when they revolve around me.
"While you make pretty speeches, I'm being cut to shreds"| Radiohead - Like Spinning Plates

I remember the effect my voice had on you and that's why you will never hear me again.
"Melt in a memory, Slide in a solitude" | Elbow - Figitive Hotel- Belgium

Where have you been and what have you been doing all these years? Any day you want to talk again, you know how to find me.
"And you want a girlfriend" | Liz Phair - Fuck & Run - Live in 1995

Be. Here. Now.
"I summon you to appear my love" | Spoon - I Summon You - Berkeley

Thanks for introducing me to those girls, even though my mind is still preoccupied.
"I think its that girl" | Tori Amos - Tear in Your Hand - Glastonbury

+ Facebook Beats MySpace and YouTube
+ 10 Reasons I Didn't Start a MySpace Account

[ February Soundtrack ]

I'm going on a trip for a while so here's this to hold you over.

[ February Soundtrack ]
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Last Year's Man

Last Year's Man
The rain falls down on last year's man, an hour has gone by and he has not moved his hand. But everything will happen if he only gives the word; the lovers will rise up and the mountains touch the ground. But the skylight is like skin for a drum I'll never mend and all the rain falls down amen on the works of last year's man.
Leonard Cohen

// She's Fantastic - Sondre Lerche
All the girls my own age, have me turning the page

// Damien Rice - Volcano | video
And like a new disease she's still too young to treat

// Play Me In Your Bedroom - Spottiswoode And His Enemies
When your dance is done and you take off your shoes

// Lou Reed - Tell It To Your Heart (live)

// Muse - Starlight |video
I just wanted to hold You in my arms

// Radiohead - Big Ideas (Nude) | video
Don't get any big ideas, they're not gonna happen

// David Bowie - White Light, White Heat
Have mercy white light have it goodness knows

// Songs of Almodóvar - Luz De Luna
Para sentir divina la illusion que me traiste / to feel that divine illusion you brought me

// Richard Ashcroft - The Drugs Don't Work | video
But I know I'm on a losing streak

// James - Say Something | video
More than a drug is what I need / Amongst friends, but all alone

// Mew - Comforting Sounds
I don't feel alright / why don't we share our solitude?

// Rufus Wainwright - This Love Affair
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know where I am going.

// Rufus Wainwright - Every Time We Say Goodbye | video
I wonder why a little

// Leonard Cohen - Hey, That's No Way To Say Goodbye
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie

// Damien Rice - Elephant (live) | video
This has got to stop.

// the Cure - End | video
I think I've reached that point where giving up and going on are both the same dead end to me

[ Previously.... Romantic Desires As Inconveniences /  a predilection for troubled girls who like to read  ]

+ Eisley Shares Their Hopes and Dreams for 2007

Romantic Desires As Inconveniences

"I've had a revelation about you", she said. I became worried. There are only a few things she could transparently know about me. She doesn’t know her power over me and it is my job to never let her know. It is time for an extreme exercise in discipline, so that she doesn't pick up the faint smell of a broken heart.

[ Romantic Desires As Inconveniences ]

I.
“That’s the nature of women; not to love when we love them, and to love when we love them not.”
Miguel Cervantes

The Velvet Underground | Some Kinda Love
I want you | I Want You | iwantyou because All I want is You .
Beck & Sia | The One That I Want

II.
“Thinking up lovers is thinking about lovers you don’t have or miss”
Kathy Acker

Lou Reed | Ecstasy
Tegan and Sara | Dancing in the dark [video]
Giant Drag | Wicked Game
The Ramones | I wanna be Your boyfriend

III.
"What you tell me about in the nights. That is not love. That is only passion and lust. When you love you wish to do things for. You wish to sacrifice for. You wish to serve."
Ernest Hemingway

Dresden Dolls | Dance Me To The End Of Love [video]
Teddy Thomas | Tonight Will Be Fine
Radney Foster | Baby I'm In
Rooney | Here Today, Gone Tomorrow
Tom Waits - Somewhere

P.S. - I'll be gone for a while.

text: me
photo: anna rosa krau

monday morning playlist

for the hell of it I made a playlist on FineTune. Sometimes the songs are not complete but hey, its beta.

+ Overview of FineTune

This is what an embedded playlist looks like. This one is not mine.

last 30 days of the 20's

The last 30 days of my 20's

// Eurythmics: I've Tried Everything
Being an anthem of underachievement.

// Sondre Lerche -  You Sure Look Swell
She does, everytime.

// Teddy Thomas: Tonight Will Be Fine (live)
Cover song obsession of the month.
    
// U2: Night and Day (live) 
Captivated & Charmed.

// Morrissey: My Life Is An Endless Succession Of People Saying Goodbye
Another friend left town and I know who's next.

// Kaiser Chiefs: Oh My God
It was time to be far from home.

// Toadies: Possum Kingdom (live)
In which I go to my last dance related anything ever
(unless a waifish starlet makes me go to another one, in which case I will because I do have my weaknesses)

// U2: Fast Cars
It was time for a new car.

// Ani Difranco - Hypnotized (Live)
In which I hope Ani has written the last song that reminds me of an antiquated affair.

+ Happy Jack Kirby Day!
+ Happy Birthday, Maddy

2005 + Songs

a predilection for troubled girls who like to read
being a semi biographical mix In which only songs from 2005 are used

[ Feist - One Evening ]

When we started both broken hearted
Not believing
It could begin and end in one evening

[ Doves - Walk In Fire ]

It seems, it seems there's nothing
That you couldn't do
With a drink inside of you

[ Eisley - One Day I Floated Away  ] 

Your eyes are beating
Rhythms way
Faster than the speeding bullet
That took the life of your radio 

[ Okkervil River -In A Radio Song.mp3  ]

To a crackle in a radio song, sing along, sing along, sing along. 

[ Fiona Apple -  Tymps (The Sick In The Head Song) ]

Cuz it isnt the rush of remembering
Its just mush

[ Ani Difranco - Manhole ]

And I'm just about to drop it
Down that manhole of memories
When I realize it doesn't bother me
Like love's mementos usually do
And I look up to see who's different here
The latest me or the latest you

[ Fiona Apple - Waltz ( Better Than Fine ) ]

If you don't have a song
To sing you're okay
You know how to get along
Humming

[ Mew - Apocalypso ]

Waltz with me, courageously
We're dancing, dancing

[ The Cardigans - Overload ]

 you i will never forget
i hope you'll remember me later

[  Kathleen Edwards - What Are You Waiting For  ]

All my wrongs don't make you right

You say you like me in your memory
You've got to be fucking kidding me

January Playlist

The first playlist I threw into my shuffle was the January Mix I made for my female benefactors.

Woman Like A Man - Damien Rice/ Suffused With Love - Sondre Lerche/ Closer When She Goes - Ryan Adams/ Teenager- Camera Obscura/ Black Is The Color Of My True Love's Hair - Twilight Singers/ I'm Waking Up To Us - Belle & Sebastian/  Bells Ring - Mazzy Star/ Cry Me a River - Glen Hansard/ Rated X - White Stripes/ Mix Tapes and Memories - The Lyndsay Diaries/ Stay - Kelly Hogan

+ I ATE IPOD SHUFFLE: a poem
+ Shuffle, the newest, cheapest iPod yet, will surprise you
+ TIME: gadget of the week

Playlist {The semi autobiographical one}

Make Up - Elefant
"I see you smile and turn your head You lift your arms and grab the bed"
I Like You - Morrissey
"You're not right in the head, and nor am I, This is why I like you"
Have Mercy - Loretta Lynn
"Please have a little heart"
I'm in love with a girl - Big Star
"All that a man should do is true I didn't know this could happen to me"
Don't get me wrong - The Pretenders
"I might be great tomorrow But hopeless yesterday"
I'm sticking with you - Velvet Underground
"But with you by my side I can do anything"
Someone else - Superheroes
"I know she wants someone else I can tell it by the way she holds me"
Murder me rachael - The Nationals
"I saw my love with pretty boy"
I Heard It Through The Grapevine - Marvin Gaye
"You could have told me yourself, That you love someone else "
I had you - Novisplit
"Tell yourself more lies that make you feel ok"
This Is Not My Life - Fastball
"This is not my face, This is not my place, no it's just isn't right"
Make Me Mad - Dulcie Younger
"howl at the moon and send you crying"
Already Over Me - The Rolling Stones
"I'm your man Not your fool"
Lay me down - The Frames
"I will write you letters that explain the way I'm thinking now"
Now that I miss her - elefant
"When I said goodbye, I knew that I lost her"
We Will Still Need a Song - Hawksley Workman
"And maybe anger is your only choice"
So sad about us - The Who
"suppose we'll never make up"
Come With Me Tonight - Bob Schneider
"smooth as 151"
Don't be crushed - Hawksley Workman
"Don't be broken, even if you're broken"
So What - Ani DiFranco
"who were you then that you thought somehow you could just pretend"
Your Face - The Frames
"I know something about you, something about the things you do"

Playlist: April Mix

I'm not good at not getting what I want (Sophie Ellis-Bexton) 

"But I know that there are some who have it all I want to join them"

Phonecall 45 (Emm Gryner) 

"I don't need another friend maybe you do"  

Accused (The Delgados)  

"Let me take advantage of your whims"

Wonderful (Adam Ant) 

"I miss you yes I do" 

The Twilight Showdown (Starlight Mints)  

"Fighting with his eyes, combusted"

Love and Destroy (Franz Ferdinand)  

"I'm here with you at midnight, I forget about living alone"

Elevator Love Letter (Stars)

"I'm so hard for a rich girl"  

Here I Dreamt I was an Architect (Decemberists)  

"and here in spain i am a spaniard"

Do You Realize (Beck cover)  

"It's hard to make the good things last"

Everybodys gotta learn sometime (Beck)  

"Change your heart, it will astound you"

Light and Day (The Polyphonic Spree)  

"You don't see me flyin to the red"

Mood Indigo (Nina Simone)  

"I'm just a poor fool that's bluer than blue can be"

Wonderwall (Ryan Adams) 

"I'm sure you've heard it all before" 

Wurlitzer Prize (Norah Jones cover)  

"I haunt the same places we used to go"

You mustn't Kick It Around (Erin McKeown cover) 

"Don't let a good fellow go to waste"

New Resolution (postalserviceremix) (Azure Ray)  

"I won't forget i won't forget the way you said Move on"

She Loves You So Hard (Cat Power)  

"The wonder the person to have you cannot"

They Don't Know ( Ben Gibbard cover )  

"maybe I could leave you but I don't know how"

If There Is A Chance (The Cardigans) 

"the music's playin on, but somethings wrong, somethings gone" 

November (Azure Ray) 

"So these lighter days can soon begin"

Valentines 04

Set List for Mix CD all the right girls got:

My Baby Just Cares For me - Nona Simone

Won't U Please B Nice  - Nellie Mckay

I Belive In A Thing Called Love - Edson

Simply Irresistable - rilo kiley

It's a Man's World - James Brown

Never Tear Us Apart - Tom Jones + Natalie I.

Teenage Love Song - rilo kiley

I throw my toys around -  No Doubt + Elvis Costello

Let's Play Life - Wally Pleasant  

Maps - yeah yeah yeahs

Love is everywhere I go - Sam Phillips

Touch Me With your love - Beth Orton

Beautiful - Rosey 

Endlessly - Muse

So Alive - Ryan Adams

Lost At Sea - Eisley

Sea of Love - Cat Power

Nothing Compares To U - S. O'Connor

I touch myself - The Bens

Pour Some Sugar On Me - Emm Grynner

Here's to Love - Ewan McG.+ Rene Z.

Playlist: Nowhere Is Now Here

Let The Distance Bring Us Together - Conor Oberst and Britt Daniel

Wild World - Beth Orton

Shoot Me Down - Nick Cave

You Left Me A Song - Heather Nova

Absolutely Zero - Jason Mraz

Couldn't Care Less - The Cardigans

A Mind of her own - Pedro The Lion

Nevermeant - American Football

Gagging Order - Radiohead

Suddenly Everything Has Changed - Postal Service

Falling Away with You - Muse

Rainslicker - Josh Ritter

Half jack - Dressden Dolls

Ontario - Mountain Goats

Go or Go Ahead - Rufus W.

We used To Be Friends - Dandy Warhols

La La La song - Low

With Arms Outstreched - Rilo Kiley

We've Never Met - Neko Case