While I'm on this R.E.M. kick, one for my Muse: [R.E.M. You Are The Everything.live],
and also thanks for all the encouragement to my dear be your pet.
November 12, 2017
August 28, 2016
So see you when you're 40, lost and all alone
+ 40 Things Turning 40 in 2016
U2, Apple, Alicia Silverstone.
+ 40 Is the New 20
Twenty-year-old women think that forty-year-old men are too old to date. Thirty-year-old men think they’re young enough to date twenty-year-old women, while thirty-year-old women think they’re old enough to date forty-year-old men. Forty-year-old men think we’re all in the same general dating “age range.” Forty-year-old women think that forty-year-old men are too immature for them to date.
July 26, 2016
December 25, 2013
Twenty Years of Ten Summoner's Tales
My memory is such that I remembered a particular crummy Christmas Eve Twenty years ago in which this album kept me company. Little did I know then that twenty years later I would be in the same room, alone again, on the same day.
November 28, 2013
returning
I'm back. It is what it is. I almost wrote more but then time passed.
Writing is one method of dealing with being human or wanting to suicide cause in order to write you kill yourself at the same time while remaining alive.
Kathy Acker
A part of you is ending
A part of you holds on
A part of you holds on
A part of you is able
A part of you is gone
A part of you is gone
August 28, 2013
Don't you think I'm looking older?
Sometimes I wonder if you think I'm older or younger than I actually am.
+ George Michael: Older.Unplugged
Strange, Baby
Don't you think i'm looking older?
But something good has happened to me
Change is a stranger
You have yet to know
Change is a stranger
Who never seems to show
Quote by L. Cohen
December 11, 2012
September 09, 2012
It has been years since I was "Happy"
New fucking York, 2009. That's the last time I was happy. That's a lot of years of not being happy for those keeping up. We ( and by we I mean myself, Colleen , Adam & Jessica ) were on our way to the The Highline when we ran into these busts being junked and we took them and had fun with them all day. I miss my east coast friends tremendously.
Dope Tshirts
August 24, 2012
August 02, 2012
March 03, 2012
Talking only makes me feel more alone
I can't quite decode why no one chats or calls me.
“Talking only makes me feel more alone,”
Wherever you are in me I’m there, though it’s not what you wanted.
Philip White
June 02, 2011
Why can't we overcome this wall?
+ Frank Sinatra & Aretha Franklin: What Now My Love
What now my love
Now there is nothing
Only my last goodbye
Only my last goodbye
March 20, 2011
BatKids
If I had kids, I would probably dress them like this all the time.
January 30, 2010
January 28, 2010
I'm crossing that bridge
+ Seal: Prayer For The Dying
Life Carries On, It Goes On
Previously: Momma
headstone sunset by ~bunnyolove
January 01, 2010
August 28, 2009
If you're alive at thirty-three
They want you to be Jesus
They'll go down on one knee
But they'll want their money back
If you're alive at thirty-three
And you're turning tricks
With your crucifix
You're a star
U2 - Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me: Live
[ Previously....32 flavors and then some ]
June 30, 2009
Amnesiac
Laid Off Chronicles: two days short of 3 months.I was restless and could not sleep after watching a mostly unfunny "Weeds". Seriously, just pretend it ended with Season 3 if you've never watched the show. I watch out of habit. Anyway, I popped two Ambiens and the next thing I know its 1:30am and I'm running all over the sprinkler system at my apartment complex drinking Coca-Cola out of a plastic flask. It was so refreshing. Alas, the time between when I was taking pictures and I woke up in my bed this morning is missing. Finally, full on Scheduled Amnesia. Lost in the haze was a post about "Nocturnal Nymphets". Maybe it will come to me the next time this happens.
+ Radiohead Life in a Glass House/live from the album Amnesiac.
Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
June 19, 2009
June 18, 2009
backlogs
Insomnia sometimes makes you do wacky things. Like laying down my whole backlog of magazines and books in the living room at 3am. And a big fuck you to Ambien for not working or giving me Amnesia as a side effect. I'm all for scheduled amnesia. You can click for larger pictures if you care.
June 04, 2009
I'm sleeping in a submarine
Laid Off Chronicles: end-of-month-2. Accomplishments: A vacation away from Texas. Spending precious time with my bff and her roomates. Before my trip I'd just watched "The Hunt For Red October" and remembered how much I liked it. So you can imagine the glee in my eyes when I saw a submarine park next to the highway on our way out of Portsmouth. This is a bookmark for myself and my friends of random things I remember from the trip: Santarpios, the "Don't Stop Believing" sing-a-long, Nat 2.0 picture finally made a reality, regressing to mall rat mode, Orange Julius, "UP", The impromptu random funny parts from movies we like festival! (Two of the submissions came from Hot Rod: "Babe" + "Dance" ). That one girl who said "So do you want to be in a Rachel sandwhich?. Hotdogs. "I Know What I like!". Beating Rachel at Scrabble and Uno on my iphone during our car ride. Score!
May 12, 2009
I'm writing this to you in reverse because my inside is outside
“In some ways I love everything cause it’s less of a thing than ‘like’, less distinct, less particular. I like things that I like but I love everything. There’s more choice in ‘like’ cause even the worst things have things to love in them.”
— Cassie Ainsworth, Skins /via
May 08, 2009
i miss you when you are not around
I can't sleep and I just watched a dumb movie filmed in NYC which made me miss you, brunch, walks on the Upper East Side at night, Museums, The Park, Duane Reed runs for random stuff, Coffee shops, your laughter, waiting for play tickets, dancing at night, eating late, trying to sleep when they pick up the trash, and every time I've visited rushed completely into one sleepless blink. So I found a picture I took from my first visit, just to make my Hyperthymesia last a little longer.
March 25, 2009
Mr.
autostraddle: Girl-on-Girl Letter: Girl-on-Girl Blogger Q&A: "The first one’s funny ’cause it ain’t a lady. I interviewed John Moon over at Achtung Baby!"
Damien Rice: Woman Like A Man
December 11, 2008
August 28, 2008
32 flavors and then some
I wanted to pick my 32 favorite posts but I couldn't do it. Here's 32 and then some....
: sneaking into oblivion and other arbitrary choices I have not made : scenes from a rooftop party : The best Friday Night Lights DVD Endorsement ever : By Jane Hirshfield : Love is Hell : Joyce : Women... : Curiosities: signed books : [ Willie Nelson - Lonely Nights ] : mark z. danielewski : July was hot : Robin Quivers asks "What's a blog?" : Next to the Wound.. : Dear Dominique : The Face... : [ Books Written for Girls ] : K. A. : Sober Hemingway : [ I came so far for beauty ] : Year One : a starlet then and now : words they said : [ A Face In The Crowd ] : [ Woke Up In A Strange Place ] : [ I've Loved You All Over The World ] : //paper moon : Her name sprang to my lips : Silliman + Poetry : Gotcha ! ! ! : Rooms : Lolita 1990 : [ It's A Long Life To Always Be Longing ] : You Take Away the Sun : [ Some Kinda Love ] : sex for depressives : Your Cloud : ..Mug A Yuppie : LIT Limited Book + CD : Write Again : [ Starting Over ] : [ Neglekted ] : Pacific Purr vs the Atlantic Ache : [ Underwear ] : 2005 + Songs : [ So Tight_going to town ] : This hole in my heart... : [ Ode To A Friend ] : She sat down at the piano... : I wish women would hurry up and take over : [ Marrow ] : [ I Keep A Close Watch ] : ..in three moves flat.. : [ Every Time I Try ] : Era Lo, sencillamente Lo... : last 30 days of the 20's : Nobody Knows You When You're Down And Out : Romantic Desires As Inconveniences : [ Why Don't You Try ] : [ ('Til) I Kissed You ] : [ Thinking About You ] : Last Year's Man : downtowntrain : Commenting : //mystery : hope : Love generally... : .a catalog of increasing disasters. : .Terminal Loneliness and other stories. : "Love at First Sight" by Wislawa Szymborska : Ennis : The Only Poem : [ Nabokov ] reads from "Lolita" : My Portable Gaming History : ODE TO A MODEL : POETRY... : match the blog with its muse : Once I Knew a Hot Girl : "Some Men fight... : [ Stateless - U2 ] : Bootleg : Wojnarowicz : Federico García Lorca : Neruda
+ ani difranco: 32 flavors live
[ Previously....."one flavor short of 32" ]
July 29, 2008
We've got five years, stuck on my eyes
+ David Bowie - Five Years
+ The Arcade Fire - Five Years
+ Placebo - Five years
Drawing Of D. Bowie, circa 1997
June 08, 2008
and then I walked by a store with my name
Songs that will remind me of this trip....
+ Bodysnatchers
+ Faith
+ Crying
+ Chasing Cars
+ Crazy Indian Video... Buffalaxed
May 31, 2008
1998. Memory is my Enemy
Items that were on the floor of my apartment in May 1998.
"She said, "The art of longing's over and it's never coming back."
Leonard Cohen: Death of a Ladies' Man
I found one thing in you to praise and on this pebble I built my fortress of love.
-Death of a Lady's Man, Leonard Cohen
I know I am a fool, hoping dirt and glory are both a kind of luminous paint; the humiliations and exaltations that light us up. I see like a bug, everything too large, the pressure of infinity hammering at my head. But how else to live, vertical that I am, pressed down and pressing up simultaneously? I cannot assume you will understand me. It is just as likely that as I invent what I want to say, you will invent what you want to hear. Some story we must have. Stray words on crumpled paper. A weak signal into the outer space of each other.
The probability of separate worlds meeting is very small. The lure of it is immense. We send starships. We fall in love.”
-Gut Symmetries, Jeanette Winterson
Songs that remind me of this precise time period, important to me for my own reasons: Pulp - Like a Friend , Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds: I Let Love In ( live, from the "best of" bonus disc ), Tori Amos: Spark , Tori Amos: Siren.
I broke my promise not to suffer, and now
I have to start all over again to earn my solitude
-Death of a Lady's Man, Leonard Cohen
February 18, 2007
downtowntrain
the downtown trains are full with all those Brooklyn girls
they try so hard to break out of their little worlds
+ Tom Waits - Downtown Train - Storytellers
In remembrance of subway misadventures and being with my favorite Brooklyn girl last week. The less said about being out and about during the "Valentine's Day Winter Storm" and a terrible airport experience thanks to Jet Blue, the better.
December 21, 2006
November 26, 2006
Fall 2004 Nostalgia
U2: How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb
Original Release Date: November 23, 2004
Lost
Season 1, Episode 1: September 22, 2004
World of Warcraft
Release Date: November 23, 2004
The Incredibles
Release Date: November 5, 2004
Tegan and Sara: So Jealous
Original Release Date: September 14, 2004
Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas
Release Date: October 26, 2004
Halo 2
Release Date: November 9, 2004
House M.D.
Season 1, Episode 1: November 16, 2004
2004. I miss you.
June 18, 2006
Crawling From the Wreckage
Like VN [1] I believe in Fate and this is my current Fate: I have suffered a disastrous data loss. Sometimes hard drives go Kaput. This particular hard drive happened to contain folders with names like "Photographers", "Waiting for a Quote", "Songs in search of a picture" and on and on. Know what I mean jelly bean? All the files I used for this blog ( like an archive of all the little 100x100 icons on the left and right ) and files, notes and ideas I had yet to use. Like in the R.E.M song: "Let's begin again.."
[1] "Nabokov was a monomaniac and he persistently worked-over one big, complicated theme: fate's cruel capriciousness." VN COLLATION #14
January 28, 2006
December 25, 2005
August 04, 2005
Pacific Purr vs the Atlantic Ache
She says Hi from the Pacific Northwest.
My view of the Eastern Seaboard.
March 07, 2005
out for the week
I'm going to New Orleans for the week. I'll leave you with this:
Fiona Apple - Extraordinary Machine Torrent
NEW YORK POST: GIRL, INTERRUPTED
March 6, 2005 -- LOCKED away in the Sony master vault, or maybe Fiona Apple's sock drawer, is an album that's gathering dust - and the kind of momentum that might push the mystery disc into rock mythology. Apple was the teen-age waif who took the rock world by storm with her debut album, "Tidal." Her single "Criminal," released when she was only 19, won a Grammy and propelled her to multi-platinum success.
An indie darling, Apple dated filmmaker Paul Thomas Anderson, and released her second album with an 83-word-long title, usually shortened as "When the Pawn ..."
It tanked.
Her third effort - the mystery disc - is titled "Extraodinary Machine," and was completed almost two years ago in May 2003.
But it was never released.
Frustrated Apple fans have taken to the Internet, lobbying for the album, calling it a masterpiece.
A Sony insider said the fate of "Machine" is no mystery - reporting that the artist and label agree that the record isn't ready to enter the company's catalog.
Sony execs say the album was never officially delivered. "We join music lovers everywhere in eagerly anticipating her next release," a company official said.
Apple, now 27, was not available to verify that claim, but a complete tape of "Extraordinary Machine" - ready or not - slipped out and is now in the hands of 25-year-old radio deejay Andrew Harms, who has been playing its 11 tracks on 107.7 The End, in Seattle.
Speaking to The Post from his offices, Harms said, "This record is amazing - a brilliant piece of music, unlike anything I've heard from Fiona Apple. [ REST OF ARTICLE ]
+ Jon Brion Interview in which he talks about the album
Apple contemplated never recording another album. Then, in the spring of 2002, Brion and Apple met for their weekly lunch. Brion had recently been ejected from a five-year relationship with the comedian Mary Lynn Rajskub. Making matters worse, the breakup occurred while he was scoring Paul Thomas Anderson's ''Punch-Drunk Love.'' Rajskub had a large role in the film, and Brion spent hours watching his ex on celluloid. Now finished with the score, he was at loose ends.
''Please, please make another album,'' Brion begged Apple. ''I need work that can save me.''
February 10, 2005
Austin, the place 20 somethings come to retire at
So, you are coming to Austin for SXSW...."How do we (heart) Austin? Let us count the ways"
December 11, 2004
WishList
My Xmas Wishlist
Or
Gifts I'll give myself if none of my friends realize I have a WishList
Or
Suggested gifts for people who share my taste
Neil Gaiman's A Short Film About John Bolton
ARKHAM ASYLUM ANNIVERSARY EDITION
The Book of Ballads
Live Flesh
For that little pinko commie on your list:
For the foreign film fan on your list:
Wong Kar Wai's "2046"
October 31, 2004
I Luv Halloween
The above is from a card I got from my #1 fan. I even got a Donnie Darko pen! You are jealous and you know it. Been partying up all weekend with my pals. The girls were good and evil and my buddy was Ed from "Shaun of the Dead". My friend Chad had a noose around his neck and a shirt that said "I voted": He was a hanging chad.
I don't know why "I Luv Halloween" didn't come out, but I like the art.
As far as scary movie watching, I'm going to watch The Kingdom II. A few Halloweens ago there was a Kingdom marathon at a local theatre and it was great. I think they alternate between The Kingdom and Twin Peaks. At one point there were rumours of a Criterion DVD edition of The Kindgom. I wish it came true.
August 29, 2004
that golden year
I had a great and very happy birthday, my pals are great.
July 30, 2004
June 01, 2004
June
What joy have I in June's return? My feet are parched--my eyeballs burn, I scent no flowery gust; But faint the flagging zephyr springs, With dry Macadam on its wings, And turns me "dust to dust." Thomas Hood
Art: Tomer Hanuka
May 26, 2004
oh yah
I'm moving, so I'll be offline for a few days.
May 17, 2004
March 28, 2004
Nostalgia is a Disease
All month nostalgia seized me. I kept thinking of spring of 1994 and after I cleaned out my box of letters I actually found movie ticket stubbs from that particular time. I wish I had found my Pulp Fiction ticket, I totally remember that night.
Finding the box of letters made me miss actually receiving them. Pre-Internet boom times were so..tactile.
I realized that last week marked exactly five years since I moved to Austin, and funny enough all week I was thinking about leaving. I was in a funk.
March 16, 2004
Mail Call
Picked up some instantsunshine mail this morning. Among the items included:
Two marvel figures join the toy brawl in my cube.
Lost In Translation Post Cards!
Thanks Tim.
P.S. I'm hoping this is a trend and mail from starbody isn't far behind.
March 05, 2004
Things that cheered me up this week
Nellie McKay on Whole Wide World with Rita Houston
Yum.
LIT Scarlett Poster came in the mail. Hot.
Too many new magazines.
A co-worker won an iTunes song on his Pepsi and gave it to me. I got a Norah Jones song.
I was in a crummy mood on Monday and I cought an episode of the [ chappelle's show ] and all was better afterwards.
( chapelle show Slate Article) I saw the above icon here.
And to end such a great streak, I'll go see Spoon tomorrow night.
March 01, 2004
Closet
Items I found in my old closet at my parents house.
Nifty keychains circa 1995
The Nintendo Advantage controller crica 1985
February 20, 2004
Viernes
A fine Friday, new shirt, lots of new bootlegs, a test of my upcoming "Live Tracks" Mix, my friend Sara May is coming over for the weekend, and best news of all: Apple came through and will be sending me a new laptop next week.
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